When I was little my parents always accommodate me with a lot of courses, for example English class, ballet class, drawings class, piano class,  dancing class, and also singing class. And as you can see most of it was art classes. Thus, my dream when I was little was to be an artist like musician, dancer, or others. But when I entered middle school, I’m no longer went to those classes. And instead of those art classes, I started to play basketball and fell in love with this sport so much. I played basketball almost every day, and some days I play basketball two until three times per day. And my dream that time was to be an athlete. But my mom didn’t support me to play basketball. She prefers to see me dance or play piano like most of the girl did which is more feminine activity. Until one day my family decided to move to other city, and I continued my high school there. Girls at my new school were so feminine, and no one played basketball or even do sports. Because of the environment and also my mom, I didn’t play basketball that frequently and decided to focus on my study more. I thought that on high school I have to be more serious because I’m no longer a kid and shouldn’t think about short term plan and started to think what I want to be when I grow older.

During high school, I take science as my major because I still don’t know what I wanted to be. And for my country, if you take science in high school you have more choices that you can take as your major when in college or university rather than the social majored student. I almost graduate from high school but I still didn’t know which major that will suits me best. So I planned to apply in 7 different campus, major, and even country, and just see which campus that accept me and I’ll just go wherever it is. That was how hopeless I was. And turns out, the 7 of them accept my applications. I didn’t know if I had to be happy, thankful, or stressed by it. I was looking for help by asking others which one is better for me, but every time I ask my friends, family, or teacher they all have different opinion. But there was one of my teacher who opened my eyes by saying that “No one knows you more than yourself, so stop asking for others opinion and start to be acquainted with yourself”. Therefore I’m trying to get to know myself more by looking back to all my histories and what I’ve been through. Deep inside my heart, I still want to be a musician or athlete but I don’t think it’s a good idea. Even though I love art and basketball, I always think that I’m not that good enough, so I’ll just let those things as my hobbies not as my career. Until I decided to go to Nanjing Tech University and take my bachelor degree majored in International Trade and Economy here. I know it’s a little confusing because it doesn’t have any correlation with all my past story. But here’s a little story about my family. So I was born in Chinese – Indonesian family, where my grandparents from both sides were from china and moved to Indonesia, and started from my parents generation we were born in Indonesia. I barely know about Chinese history, culture, and language. In my family, we still communicate in Chinese language but not mandarin, we use more Teochew or known as Chaozhou in Mandarin and Fuzhou. Even my parents can’t speak mandarin fluently. As for the culture, we still stick to some Chinese culture like Chinese New Year, Moon Cake Festival, Dragon Boat Festival, and all those tradition in Chinese wedding but I don’t know the history behind of it. Thus I choose to go to China for study so that I’m not only get my bachelor degree and knowledge in economic, but in bonus, I know more about my progenitor and learn about other language.

Honestly, I still don’t know what is my dream as a “job”, but I wanted to be successful. And I’m sure that going to Jiangsu is the best choice that I’ve ever made. Seeing that the way I think, speak, and behave is different now because of meeting different people from different country, and learn about different culture. And also these things makes me realize that the world is not as small as I thought, there are many things that I still don’t know about it. And I convinced that all of these experience that I had here will lead me to success which is my dream. And if we talk about dream, every person has different dream but for me they’re all the same, they all want to be happy but just in a different way. So as long as you happy, you living your dream. And study here makes me happy. Therefore Jiangsu is not only the place where I seeking  my dream, but also the place where I find my dream and living it.